The End?

 Well it has been quite some time since i last wrote something. 15 years has gone by. Today is July 4th 2025. Since my last post i have also lost paw-paw. He passed away on December 28th 2023. This has been super hard on me. I was really close to my grandparents. He was it, the last of my support system. First my grandmother, then my aunt, then my dad, my mom and finally my grandpa. I know its inevitable, everything must die. I was just hoping not this soon. I feel alone in the world. I had a great support system within my wife, but that to has changed. I've been out of work for a little over a year now. I'm constantly applying at places but I'm having no luck. I've had a few interviews, but nothing has panned out. Between this and my wife slowly with drawing I've been getting discouraged. Like what's the point? It seems like nothing i do is right. I didn't know how to deal with this all so i delt with it the only way i could, i hid. I hid myself in video games, where people needed me and wanted me. The issue with this was while being happy in a fictional world I've neglected the real world. I shut myself out to everyone around me. Obviously that wasn't the way i should have handled it, but at the time it was the only way I knew to escape the emptiness. Around this time my wife was starting to with draw as well. There was no more support. We got along, but it was like we were just room mates. The reality of me living in this fantasy world was very damaging. Although i seemed happy, all i was really doing was pushing my family away. I neglected everything around me. My relationships with my wife and kids were dwindling, the house was a mess, and my health was in the dumpster. But hey, my fictional world was thriving. What an idiot I was. Erin and I got into an argument a few months back. She said things need to change. She even threatened to leave. I started to realize then that something had to change. She was the only one working. She was the one doing everything to make sure everyone was taken care of. And what was I doing? Not a thing, just living in a fantasy world. So for a couple of weeks I did change. I started to help out around the house more. Doing things that i should be doing. I admit it didn't last long. I started working on cleaning the laundry room up. I was washing all the stuff that's been collecting in there for who knows how long. I got to a point where i needed Erin's help to go through some of the stuff, as i didn't know if the things left were any good or not. She never did want to come help. She said to just make a decision, that it was the girls stuff. All i wanted was to have some togetherness. Some team work again. But that team work never came. I still felt alone. Every day Erin came home from work and just sat on the couch, either watching tv, playing on her phone or both. I felt like I was still alone. There was no more casual conversations anymore. No more of her telling me stories about what happened at work. Only things that were said were things like "I'm going to the store" or "I'm going to the bathroom" or "I'm going to get Skylar/Taylor from work". That was it. So what did I do, I with drew and went back to my safe space. I knew things needed to change, but i didn't know how to do it alone. Erin already checked out, and i partially didn't blame her. She had spent the last almost year doing it on her own. It got worse and worse. No more dinners, she would get frozen things and Skylar would heat her up dinner, but not me. So i continued to with draw. I started talking to someone i met from a game. It was nothing serious, it was just a place i was getting attention. It was just a friend that we both were having similar issue's that we talked each other through. It was nothing more than that. Erin did find out about it. Someone sent her a convo i had with them saying i was ready to leave everything for her. That may have been said but that wasn't true. When people are looking for attention they say stupid things that aren't always true. The truth was I just wanted my wife's attention back and i was looking for it in all the wrong places. I get Erin was upset. I don't blame her. Here we were supposedly working things through and i did that. I've never wanted anyone but Erin. I've dedicated the last 21 years of my life to that woman and to this day there is no one else that I want. We talked about it some and she said she didn't know if she could move past that. I explained to her that it was nothing. That it was just a friend. I even brought up the past about what she did. She sent a video of herself masterbating to a guy she met on a game. When i found out and addressed her about it she begged and pleaded me not to leave,. She said she couldn't live without me and that she would kill herself. We were going through some stuff then and I thought about it all. We worked through it and everything was fine. I told her if i could move past that then why couldn't she move past this. When i say that nothing happened, i meant it. all we did was talk. Erin said "that was 10 years ago" and "your different from me". Time doesn't make it any less destructive. This discussion was on June 18th I believe. That's when she told me "tomorrow I'm going to put a deposit on a place", that she was moving out. My entire world collapsed. I never thought that she would actually do that. I always thought that we would work through this. But nope, she had enough. I spent the next few days begging and pleading with her not to do this. She continued to say that this doesn't mean its over, just we needed to separate and work on ourselves. I see it different. I see it as an issue that we need to work on together. Clearly working separately didn't work. I asked here where was I supposed to go? She said I should go stay with my sister for a while. This statement tells me it wasn't a temporary thing. My sister lives three hours away, how could I work on fixing anything and showing her that I really want this from three hours away? I told her that the reality of that is if I went there and found a job there, then we worked though this then what? I would have to leave my job to come back here to no job. I asked her what about the house here? What about the home that WE built. None of that mattered. None of that changed anything. She knew that I have nothing. That i don't have the support system that she has. I realized at this point I was losing my best friend, my support system, my partner, my wife. I realized that now I truly am alone. July 1st came quick, that was moving day, the day I was dreading. In comes her team of supporters to help her. My mother in law, after 21 years with her daughter came into my house and didn't even have the courtesy of saying hello. That was pretty shitty. This situation between Erin and I was created by both of us. We both have faults in this. But I'm to blame. I don't blame her from coming to help, Erin is her daughter after all. I just considered Shannon better than that. She always had good head on her shoulder and always played devils advocate trying to view both sides. Nope, not this time. All this things I've done to help her over the years through all of her past relationships and hard times all forgotten. Its funny that in bad times no one remembers the good times. The good things that were done. Even when the good times far out number the bad, it doesn't matter. Shannon did eventually tell me hi. I'm assuming Erin told her something when i Said something to her. All that's viewed is the bad. I had a text conversation with Taylor last night. The only one of my kids that have reached out to me. She said "I really feel like after a few months if you can prove to momma that you changed, she'll let you come with us". I thought about that for a bit. As much as I love Erin and want this to be ok I don't know what the future holds. I responded back to Taylor with this, "Its like when you have some new cool toy, everyone wants to be your friend. Until its not new and cool anymore, then no one wants to be your friend. This is the same. Everything is fine when I'm up and doing good. But when I'm down and need the help and support, my main support system leaves me. This will do nothing but drive us apart more. So it doesn't matter how much time passes. When I recover and get back up, why should I want to go back? There's no support system left. We had things to work on, no doubt. I understand she was upset and mad. She made a choice. One that didn't involve me as her partner. One that excluded me. That's not love. 21 years we have worked together. Through good times, sad times and bad times. That was a partnership. This decision want. She gave up. She quit". This hurts so much because we did work so well together, I didn't want this outcome. At some point we stopped communicating. We both got frustrated and just stopped. I even brought up going to marriage counseling to help resolve this. Sure its not cheap, but we could have figured it out. That wasn't an option for her. So that means to me she's complete done. So here I am, July 4th, sitting home alone, for the first time ever. I've lost the love of my life. I now have to figure out what to do with this house. I need to contact the mortgage company to see what my options are. I plan on doing that Monday. I've been constantly applying at more places. Part of me is why do I keep looking here? I wont be able to to stay here. Soon I wont have much of a choice but to leave the area. I've always been a happy carefree person. But not anymore. I am so lost right now. Part of me wants to just drive as fast as i can into on coming traffic. That way i wont feel this pain anymore. All I know is my best friend, my partner in this shitty world has left. After 21 years of traversing this ugly world together I don't know how to do it alone anymore. Nor am I sure I want to. I now wake up to an empty quiet house. No more kids arguing or screaming. No more law and order constantly in the back ground. No more laughing throughout the house. No more family dinners. Its just nothing. A void of silence. Maybe ill update this in a few weeks. But I don't see anything changing. If not I just want to say thank you Erin for giving me the best 21 years of my life. For giving me three beautiful girls. For showing me what love is. You were my everything. I'm sorry for not being the partner you deserved. 

For Erin, Part II

Well Erin it has been three years since we got married andfour4 years since my last "for Erin" post. I am grateful to admit that these four years have been the best they could be. The last post was made because you asked me why I wanted to marry you. Well I would just like this to be an update that we can look back upon in the future. Erin you still are the the twinkle in my sky, the air that I breath, the love of my life. During the last four years you have given me many reasons to be thankful for asking you to marry me on December 26th, 2005. We have had many ups and downs through these four years. Some hardships, deaths, and births, and we stood strong and held together. With the death of both my grandmother and my aunt you were there to support me and comfort me. You were the one that I could openly pour my thoughts and feelings about it all. You were the one that would sit there calmly listening to me crying and yelling, blaming everything and everyone that I could for taking these people from me, having never lost anyone close to me before. I don't know if you know how thankful I was for you to be there for me. That was truly one of the hardest things that I have had to deal with so far, and thankful i had you for support. We have also had our differences. Heh heh and I would like to say that we have gotten much better at settling arguments. Not perfect yet, but much better then in the beginning. Now births. I thought it was incredible and amazing that we had such a beautiful girl. Alyssa is 5 now and its amazing how much like you she is. She is very outgoing, energetic, and is as noisy as her momma. But you also blessed me again with our beautiful twins. Skylar and Taylor. They made 17 months yesterday. I remember sitting in the ultrasound room at the hospital in Tennessee, and the lady walked out for a bit to come back and tell us that they were twins. Our mouths both just dropped open and you were crying happy tears. Then we called your mom and I told her were had to think of some names. It took here a bit, heh heh, but she finally realized what I was saying. Then you called your dad while he was on his cruise in the middle of the ocean. He got excited and was shouting on the ship. I remember telling paw-paw in the van while we were all going somewhere and he got excited and started clapping. They truly were a blessing and a great addition to the family. You truly are an amazing woman. You have given me three beautiful kids and dealt with all my faults and craziness. Now we are juggling the kids and trying to finish school. You are doing great in school. You get upset from time to time but Erin you truly are the smartest woman I know, and i have complete faith in you. Your family has been great. One thing that you have that i have never had was a strong family. Hell most of my family can't stand each other. But I know that having a strong family support system helps a lot. That is what helped made you the incredible person you are today. I have learned a lot from you in the six years that we have been together. You are simply amazing Erin and I can't tall you how happy I am that you said yes. I can not imagine life without you, nor would I ever want to. Even having you gone for the weekend is depressing. Erin I love you with all my heart and soul and thank you for making me the luckiest man alive.

Missy you will be missed......

blah .... where to start. there is some things i need to get out and this seems like a great way to do it. missy i love you more then you ever knew. i thought very high of you. you were a wonderful person that would light up any room. i just cant believe your gone. you were way to young for this. i remember a lot of good times with you. i am just glad that i was able to be a part of your life. you were beautiful, intelligent, and extremly smart. i know you been through a lot these past two years, especially the last six months with being sick and with ma-ma passing away. but you tried to be strong and tried to hold it together for pa=pa. i know you had your issues, we all did. but it seems like you were being dealt rough hand. and karol. wow karol was such a lucky person to have someone like you as a mother. i remember your face and the way you looked when you first saw karol when we went to pick her up in guatemala. it was amazing. you were so excited and nervious and scared. lol and when you experienced her explosive diarrhea lmao she was already part of the family. and the fact that you choose me to go with you to pick her upwas exciting. that ment a lot to me that you did that. going there getting your baby was a very personal thing. and it was me you decided to share that experience with. it will always be a memory that i will never forget. karol is going to grow up knowing how much her mommy loved her. i will make sure that she knows everything you went though and how much you wanted and loved her. i know you started a journal from the trip to guatemala to get karol, so when i find it i will make sure karol gets that. i think that was a great idea and she will love it. i hope you liked the clothes we picked out for you to wear. i know it was what you wore for ma-ma's funeral. it was a pretty dress. i cleaned up your room a little bit, and dont think i forgot about your promise to keep your room clean heh heh. you know, the hardest part for me about all this is that you were so young. lol i know you thought you were "old" but you werent. 39 was way to young for this missy. and man it bothers me. it bothers the hell out of me that just the day before just saturday you were looking great. we all went to the bouncey barn place and we all had a great time. you seemed to have a blast. you were going down the big slide lol and even climbed straight up for that other slide. you were so active, so there and now your gone. i cant believe this missy. there was no signs of this. i mean i know you had your issues but damn. i dont how much it would have helped but i just wish i could have told you good-bye, told you how much i loved you, told you how much you truly mean to me. you gave me the world and you always believed in me. thank you. and i wanted to tell ou thank you for everything you have done for me. all the christmas cards, all the easter card, all the birthday cards, all the cards for every even you ever sent me, for coming to my school functions even the band concerts lol, all the gifts, for everything. well these are some tings i needed to get out. hopefully your reading this because these are some things i really wanted you to know. i'm sure knew all these already and i know this ia a normal reaction when something like this happens but i just want you to know this. i love you and i have always thought of you as a mom. good night and sweet dreams. i love you.

Pictures

I am posting the pictures that we have from the wedding and the honeymoon. These aren't all of the wedding pictures, we are still waiting for ours to come in. Well take a look.

Wedding pictures

Honeymoon Picures

Matthew J. Vosbein R.I.P.

Well a good friend of mine's brother passed away while serving his country in Iraq....so i wanted to tell you Chris, Jean, Anna, Connor, John, Brandon, Hagle, and Lynda how sorry I am for your loss....i didn't know Matt well but from what i did know he was a very careing person that would do anything for his family....so i searched around and decided to put up some info about him for people to read and for some to learn a litlle more about him....so Matt...this is for you....








Matthew J. Vosbein
Metairie, Louisiana
Details
age: 30
gender: M
service: Army Active duty 2nd Battalion, 502nd Infantry
rank: Sgt.
stationed in: Ky.
date of death: 2006-08-29
incident location: Sadr Al Yusifiyah, Iraq
incident details: died of injuries sustained when an improvised explosive device detonated near his dismounted patrol during combat operations
incident cause: Action
Sources: Source of the data is U.S. Department of Defense, AP, Chronicle research.
http://www.sfgate.com/cgi-bin/news/iraq/profile?sort=deathdate&ord=DESC&o=0&term=vosbein&listoffset=





VOSBEIN Sgt. Matthew J. Vosbein, (Lingle) age 30, of Clarksville, Tn., formerly of West Frankfort, was killed in action Tuesday, August 29, 2006 in Iraq while serving his country. He was born January 30, 1976 in West Frankfort to Tim Lingle and Anna Vosbein. He married Lynda ( Dodge ) Vosbein on February 19, 2005 at Ft. Campbell, Kentucky and she survives. Besides his wife Lynda, he is also survived by three sons, Connor Matthew Vosbein, John Joseph Vosbein and Brandon Glenn Jackson. His mother Anna Williams and husband Gene of West Frankfort, his father, Tim Lingle and wife Amy of West Frankfort, six brothers, Hagle Williams III, Brandon Lingle, Christopher Williams, Jason Lingle, Jeremy Lingle and Lucas Lingle. His grandparents, Lois and Vernon Veaughn, Lester and Sandra Lingle and Hagle Williams Sr. He was preceded in death by his grandparents, Charles and Ella Mae Vosbein and by his grandmother, Helen Williams. Matthew was of the Catholic Faith and was a member of the V.F.W. of Clarksville, Tn. SGT. Matthew Vosbein enlisted in the United States Army in September of 2002 at Ft. Benning, Georgia. After completing his basic training he was assigned to Ft. Campbell, Kentucky. He was deployed to Iraq where he served his tour of duty. In September of 2004 SGT. Vosbein reenlisted in the army. He was supposed to go to Germany but because his buddies were going back to Iraq he choose to return with them. Funeral services will be held Saturday, September 9, 2006 at 10:00 A.M. at the St. John's Catholic Church in West Frankfort with Father Trevor Murry officiating. Burial will be in the East Fork Cemetery in West Frankfort with full military honors. Friends may call from 4:00 P.M. to 8:00 P.M. on Friday to the Parker - Reedy Funeral Home in West Frankfort and after 8:00 A.M. at the church. In lieu of flowers, memorial contributions can be made to Family Relief Group Alpha Company- 502 to help combat soldiers returning from Iraq in there needs to adjusting to non combat and civilian life and to ease the effects of PTSD. Published in The Times-Picayune on 9/8/2006.
http://obits.nola.com/NOLA/DeathNotices.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonId=19150562









FORT CAMPBELL, Ky. (AP) - The Army says a Fort Campbell soldier from Louisiana was killed in Iraq during combat operations.
The military said in a statement that Sergeant Matthew J. Vosbein, a 30-year-old from Metairie, Louisiana, died August 29th in Sadr Al Yusifiyah after an improvised explosive device detonated near his dismounted patrol.
Vosbein was assigned to the Army's Second Battalion, 502nd Infantry Regiment, Second Brigade Combat Team, 101st Airborne Division (Air Assault).
The 101st is headquartered at Fort Campbell, which straddles the Kentucky-Tennessee border. With the latest death reported, 169 soldiers from Fort Campbell have died in the Iraq war since it began in 2003. More than 150 of those have been from the 101st Airborne Division.
The 20,000 soldiers of the 101st are scheduled to return by this fall from a yearlong deployment in Iraq, with the majority expected home by the end of September. Some advance parties of soldiers have already begun returning.
http://www.katc.com/Global/story.asp?S=5370955&nav=EyB0






(KSDK) - The body of a soldier killed in Iraq was flown home to St. Louis Thursday evening. The southern Illinois native was met by friends, family and even strangers who came to pay their respects.Sgt. Matthew Vosbein grew up in West Frankfort, Ill., a town about 90 miles outside St. Louis. He was in Iraq on his second tour of duty when he was killed. Vosbein suffered fatal injuries following a roadside bombing.Vosbein, 30, lived a life devoted to giving to others, and representing his country as a proud soldier in the U.S Army. Amid tears, friends and family said farewell to the fallen soldier who died doing what he loved.It was the flag that represented the ideals that Matthew Vosbein stood for. In his memory, the stars and stripes waved over the war hero's procession.Local police and firefighters say it is an honor to be able to help say thank you for the sacrifices that military men and women make.Matthew Vosbein leaves behind three sons and a wife.Visitation for family and friends will be held Friday from 4 p.m. until 8 p.m. at the Parker-Reedy Funeral Home, 604 E. Main St. in West Frankfort.Funeral services will be held on Saturday at 10 a.m. at St. John's Catholic Church in West Frankfort. Vosbein will be buried at East Fork Cemetery in West Frankfort.
http://www.ksdk.com/news/news_article.aspx?storyid=103226








Matthew J Vosbein
Metairie, Louisiana
August 29, 2006
Age: 30
Military: Army
Rank: Sgt
Unit/Location: Army's 2nd Battalion, 502nd Infantry Regiment, 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 101st Airborne Division (Air Assault)
Fort Campbell, Kentucky
Killed in Sadr Al Yusifiyah, Iraq, when an improvised explosive device detonated near his dismounted patrol during combat operations.
http://www.iraqwarheroes.com/vosbein.htm







Thumbs-Up: To the life and contributions of Sgt. Matthew J. Vosbein, 30, of West Frankfort, who was killed in his second line of duty while supporting Operation Iraqi Freedom. Vosbein was laid to rest last week in his hometown. Hundreds of mourners lined the streets of the community to pay tribute to a man who was all about service to his country.
http://www.southernillinoisan.com/articles/2006/09/15/opinions/ups_and_downs/17561336.txt







Wednesday, September 06 2006 @ 09:59 AM
WEST FRANKFORT, IL --The dream of a young West Frankfort boy came true when Matthew Vosbein enlisted in the U.S. Army. It's a dream his mother, Anna Williams says her son held onto since he was 5-years old.
"I remember buying him an Air Force uniform and he wore it all the time. I could barely get him out of it to clean it. Then when he was 5, I bought him some camouflage pants and a shirt," says Williams.
Sergeant Matthew Vosbien, of the101st Airborne Division 502nd Infantry Regiment, was living out his dream fighting in Iraq on his second tour of duty, when a roadside bomb took his life.
"He didn't have to go, but when his unit was called back up for a second time, he didn't want to leave his troops over there without him. And he really liked helping the kids over there. He was building them swing sets, and playing all sorts of games with them when he wasn't on patrol. He loved those Iraqi kids, almost as much as he did his own two sons," Anna said.
Just three weeks shy of his return to the United States, he's still coming home. But not the way his family had planned.
"He's got two boys who worship him. When I was down in Louisiana a couple of weeks ago, his youngest kept saying to me that his daddy wasn't coming home. I had to keep reassuring him that he was. Now we've had to go through and explain everything, and tell them that their daddy isn't coming home. And all they were worried about is that their daddy had promised to do things with them when he returned. And now daddy wasn't going to be able to do that. And they wanted to know who was going to do those things with them now," Anna said wiping tears from her eyes.
The news of Sgt. Vosbein's death on the battlefield hit home heavily, with his own father.
"I found out the day before his death that he was coming home. Then the next day the Army shows up and gives me the bad news," says Tim Lingle.
"I'll always remember him for his dedication to this country. As my son, and the love that we shared. And the bond. It seems like our bond with one another became stronger after he joined the Army."
A bond that Matthew shared with his two sons. And one that will now have to be carried on by his surviving family members.
"He stated in his 'What If' letter in his things we just received from Iraq that he wanted us to let his boys know that he had done all the things in his life he had always wanted to do. And that's going to be my remembrance of him. Is to help his boys know the type of man he was," says Gene Williams Sgt. Vosbien's step-father.
Sgt. Matthew Vosbien was 30 years old. His funeral arrangements are still pending at this time.
http://iraq.pigstye.net/article.php/VosbeinMatthew





Sgt. Matthew J. Vosbein
Hometown: Metairie, Louisiana, U.S.
Age: 30 years old
Died: August 29, 2006 in Operation Iraqi Freedom.
Unit: Army, 2nd Battalion, 502nd Infantry Regiment, 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 101st Airborne Division (Air Assault), Fort Campbell, Ky.
Incident: Killed when a makeshift bomb exploded near his dismounted patrol during combat operations in Yusufiyah.
http://projects.washingtonpost.com/fallen/dates/2006/aug/29/matthew-j-vosbein/







Sgt. Matthew Vosbein, 30, of Clarksville, Tenn., was due back Sept. 23 after his second tour of duty in Iraq, said Amy Lingle, of Thompsonville, Ill. She is married to Vosbein's father, Tim Lingle.
Vosbein was assigned to the Army's 2nd Battalion, 502nd Infantry Regiment, 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 101st Airborne Division, headquartered at Fort Cambell, which straddles the Kentucky- Tennessee border.
http://pqasb.pqarchiver.com/timespicayune/access/1122989721.html?dids=1122989721:1122989721&FMT=ABS&FMTS=ABS:FT&date=Sep+6%2C+2006&author=From+staff+reports&pub=Times+-+Picayune&edition=&startpage=11&desc=Metairie+man+dies+in+combat






Vosbein consummated a lifelong dream when he enlisted in the Army in September 2002 and became part of the first wave of soldiers to push into Iraq. He died there Aug. 29, less than a month before he was scheduled to return home, when a roadside bomb exploded while he was on combat patrol in Sadr Al Ysifiyah.
His family called Vosbein a devoted father to two sons, Connor, 5, and John, 7, both of Louisiana, and a stepson, Brandon Jackson, 12. His attachment to his children fueled his sense of purpose in Iraq, where he was troubled by the precarious conditions in which many children lived.
Vosbein was raised by his mother and her husband, [Gene Williams], in Metairie, but when he was a teenager, he decided he wanted to meet his biological father, Tim Lingle of Illinois. His family says he put on his ROTC uniform, asked for the military discount on his plane ticket and set off to Illinois
http://pqasb.pqarchiver.com/timespicayune/access/1123572181.html?dids=1123572181:1123572181&FMT=ABS&FMTS=ABS:FT&date=Sep+7%2C+2006&author=Kate+Moran+East+Jefferson+bureau&pub=Times+-+Picayune&edition=&startpage=01&desc=Soldier+had+firm+resolve%2C+family+recalls+






Funeral Notice
VOSBEIN

Besides his wife [Lynda], he is also survived by three sons, Connor Matthew Vosbein, John Joseph Vosbein and Brandon Glenn Jackson. His mother Anna Williams and husband Gene of West Frankfort, his father, [Tim Lingle] and wife Amy of West Frankfort, six brothers, Hagle Williams III, Brandon Lingle, Christopher Williams, Jason Lingle, Jeremy Lingle and Lucas Lingle. His grandparents, Lois and Vernon Veaughn, Lester and Sandra Lingle and Hagle Williams Sr. He was preceded in death by his grandparents, Charles and Ella Mae Vosbein and by his grandmother, Helen Williams.
http://pqasb.pqarchiver.com/timespicayune/access/1124701401.html?dids=1124701401:1124701401&FMT=ABS&FMTS=ABS:FT&date=Sep+8%2C+2006&author=&pub=Times+-+Picayune&edition=&startpage=05&desc=Funeral+Notice+






well these are all things i found on the internet....Jean and Anna i am sorry for your loss....at least now he is in a better place where there is no war or fighting.....where there is only joy and happiness.





There is also a guest book available on the net...the link is below for those who would like to go there and sign it.
http://legacy.com/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=19146276